At first my focus on being a better me and just enjoying my life was a conscious effort. I had to remind myself it was ok to be alone, I was doing fine and all would be right with the world soon. Then over a few weeks, every once in a while my friends would… Continue reading Karma Works Both Ways

Now that the house was in order and I felt a little more organized I could focus. Do you ever feel that way? Like when the house in is disarray it somehow mimics what you are feeling inside. Now my house was in order, things were in its place, all shiny and bright and smelling… Continue reading Day, Hour, Minute

No sooner did I tell myself and my friends that I was going to take a male hiatus, did the inquiries for dates start coming in. In actuality, within the first few weeks I had three different men ask me out. One was from a Facebook page I was on, one was someone I never knew and… Continue reading Suitors

My quest for never-ending love had now taken on an entirely new meaning.  I was no longer looking for that from someone else, but from myself.  I needed to replenish my soul.  I needed to fill my mind with positivity.  I needed to start actually taking care of myself.  Something I had put on the back… Continue reading Solitary

I guess over time when living with someone whether it’s a friend or love interest things begin to change.  That’s exactly what happened to Drama and I.  We operated symbiotically for a while and it worked really well, until it didn’t.  Seems to be the general theme of all relationships in my life, but this was… Continue reading No Good Deed

So Drama came and went as he pleased and we operated pretty well together.  We had the same group of friends and he had been away a few months, so after he assimilated himself back into the group things went smoothly.  We went to parties and gatherings together, we had morning coffee on the deck and… Continue reading Spare Room

Now began a series of questions that would take me a bit of time to get past in my head. Things like, my tried and true, my fall back, my hot button; Why wasn’t I enough? I always seemed to internalize things. Somehow maybe I wasn’t good enough, maybe I didn’t love him enough or… Continue reading Drama