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Sparks Fly

Somewhere in late September Spark guy and I were still having our weekly lunches and I knew it had to stop.  The sexual tension between the two of us was palpable and I was playing with fire.  We had begun seeing each other one night a week for no other reason then to see each… Continue reading Sparks Fly

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Explosion

A few nights later it was a regular night and I decided to go to bed early.  My youngest went to sleep, his youngest went to sleep and our two older ones were laying on the bed watching YouTube videos and SnapChat stories.  Jolly Guy was puttering around and I felt it was safe to just go… Continue reading Explosion

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Food Wars

He came home that night and there were very few words.  What he did say was “I didn’t mean it.”  Unfortunately the words were already out there.  The saying about words hurting and not being able to take them back is so ridiculously true.  My heart was hurt.  My inner being felt rocked because above anything… Continue reading Food Wars

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Trip of a Lifetime

I resented the comment.  I especially resented it because I didn’t want a party at all.  I wanted to go to Italy.  That had been my life long dream, my trip of a lifetime and I was planning it for my 40th birthday since I was thirty.  I was going to go with all my girlfriends… Continue reading Trip of a Lifetime

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Debt

A week or two past and for some reason I could feel tension rising in the house between Jolly guy and myself.  We were getting ready to start the addition on the house and I thought that had him a little stressed out, but I could feel something was shifting.  He was pacing, smoking a lot… Continue reading Debt

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Fabulous at 40

When I tell you the party was wonderful I mean every single second of that birthday was great.  The brunch in the city, the roof top bar cocktails and then when he said “Let’s stop one more place for a last glass of wine before we go home to the kids”  It was all amazing. … Continue reading Fabulous at 40

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Money Talks

I can remember the day I received my first piece of mail at my new home.  I was so excited to see the new address associated with my name.  It felt very official.  The house was a buzz that day, filled with all sorts of family members as we were getting ready for a big… Continue reading Money Talks