No one was happy about the move, I was happy but it was effecting me way more than I thought it would, but I was trying really hard to stay positive. One night I went to jolly guys house after packing and I was in tears. He felt horrible and I didn’t mean for him… Continue reading Rex Ryan

Over the remainder of the summer jolly guy and I worked really hard on being in a better place.  I think we got there.  I don’t want to make it sound like I was some kind of victim, because that wasn’t the case.  I was not an innocent bystander as he did secret things or… Continue reading Roots

Things were good and as the spring rolled around I never had to think about all the things I’d had thought about with other men. Jolly guy was indeed different and had me 100% in hook line and sinker. I never worried about money. I paid my bills as always and offered to cover as… Continue reading Three Little Words

Over the next few weeks, I dabbled here and there with dreads cause it was easy and he was there and I did like him a lot, but he wasn’t THE guy.  I was beginning to think that THE guy didn’t exist.  Which was a shame because I totally believed I could be THE girl. … Continue reading Friend Request

I woke up the next morning with butterflies as I rushed downstairs to the computer. I logged on and with one eye open I waited to see if anyone in their right mind wanted to talk with me. Much to my surprise my inbox was a flury with action! “They like me! They really like… Continue reading Sally Fields

My quest for my perfect mate had come to a screeching halt. There was no way I could focus. I hooked up with dreads here and there but everything was so serious. My life had gotten ridiculously serious. Between my job, the kids, the bills, the doctors and dreads there was nowhere to turn for… Continue reading Chains

It was good.  It was great actually.  But when all was said and done the anticipation was better than that actual act.  I know there’s most likely something wrong with me,  but there was something missing.  There always just seems to be something missing.  Sometimes I think if I could put pieces of all the… Continue reading Let Down